Let me begin by addressing the question at hand..my life is certainly not what I pictured a year ago… kinda!

I embarked on a trajectory of life a year ago forcibly down a familiar path to find purpose in life. I did not want to take this beaten path but felt like I had no other choice at the time. There was always this feeling that I want something else… I want someone else..I want the love back in my life.

Fast forward to today and that feeling I had never left me throughout this last year… only growing stronger the more I was away from love.

I can sum up what has transpired in poetry… so here I go.

“Teary eyed I envisage my darling

helpless to quench my yearning

Every passing moment a silent dagger to my fragile beating heart

May no other lovers ever be kept apart!

The pain of your absence is unbearable

Unable to reach out and feel you is a torture intolerable

This test of love seems to flow on like the Nile

Without her, I a rudderless ship, have even forgotten how to smile!

I count the hours fade by wishing time to hasten my existence

A life without my life is no life at all but a life sentence!

Knowing joy will never make its home with me again 

There is now no achievement, no striving it’s all in vain!

My only desire now is to contemplate her name

To wonder what it will be like to see her, would it be the same?

To be in love is indeed a madness unique

That leads one to tread the path of misery and suffering seek!

I am pinned but not yet crushed, I will rise and stand

I feel it now in my heart that I will fight for my love so grand!

The future is unwritten and the past full of scars

I will not give up on our love, If needed I’ll re-write the stars!”